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Hi! I'm Marietta! (an introduction)
determinedI'm a twenty-something wife and mother. I have been married for going on 7 years. We have two amazing children ages 6 and 2. I am a Christian. And not one of those "ho-hum let's go to church because it's Sunday Christians". I'm a die-hard, fully-persuaded, Spirit-led and Spirit-filled Child of God. The Lord has blessed me far above what I deserve and I owe Him more than I could ever repay. So I do my best to live according to His will, giving Him all the glory. I praise Him in the sunshine and in the rain.
I am a homemaker, an artist, a writer and a dreamer. The Lord has created me to create. That is my gift. I may not be the best, but I love what I do and I praise God for allowing me to do it.
On Sunday, my Pastor talked about being real. About those people who act one way at church and one way in the world. Well That's not me.. I act pretty much the same either way. But his message spoke to me in a different way. That girl I am at church and outside of it, is not the real me. Well some parts are, but not totally. I have always been way too concerned with what other people think of me. Very careful not to offend anyone or have people think I'm stupid. I've not gone all out with my talents because, what if I mess up? And if I do show my giftings at all, I make sure that other people know that I know that I'm not all that good.
I've always been afraid that my opinion doesn't matter. No matter how strongly I feel about it or how much sense it makes in my life. I buckle under outside influences way too easily. I put my son in Public school. Something I was dead-set against, because my in-laws threw such a hissy about homeschooling.
Up until this point, I've been a wishy-washy, weak little woman. Well, NO MORE! It's going to take some time. So I'm starting here on this blog. I'm going to let it grow from here. I'm going to be strong with Christ's help. My opinion matters! Who I am matters! Not who people want or expect me to be. Pleasing people is great! But not at the detriment to yourself. I've let myself get lost in the expectations of others. NOw I'm a shell of what I once was. Barely resembling the woman God wants me to be.
I'm going to be me if it kills me! Who's with me???
Praying for you
Re: Praying for you
I, too, have been afraid of my creativity, too afraid of offending others, too afraid of not living up to their expectations, or what they expect me to be or do. Too afraid to go against the "status quo," but holding myself back and hiding the real me has hurt me greatly, and I do believe, others as well because I have not been true to myself or to the calling and gift the Lord has blessed me with.
We are on this journey together. I will be praying for you! (And I'm so grateful the Lord has allowed us to meet on LJ!)